minus one

nudges of the shoulder
jokes made

understood by only one
brotherly but
not brothers
slaps on the back
holding them up
in the worst times

the comradery
dulls with
decisions made
the ease of it
hurts the bond
backs turned
in a moment
of blind pride

hard as it ever was
brotherly bond
gone
it tears one apart
as he walks the wound
open

never seeing the huddle
that he leaves
or the life the other
brethren held him to
not just his fraternity
but his home

so hard was the
abandon for them
he never knew
the feelings spent
on the one that left

all for one
as the three
should be
one takes his
world for granted
compromise
not needed
for the lost
or for the proud

jjay–

anger and weakness

memories of me
when i was happier
i was someone
they all knew my name
all cowered in my shadow

it was me they feared
the gaze i sent through
their weak souls
leaving deep holes
of confusion and
pain

i grinned
the fear and hate
made me strong
they all ran
no one was safe

memories of me
when i was happier
i was someone
they all knew my name
all cowered in my shadow

in my fists
pure anger and torture
they will cower again
at my deep wanton
destruction

i terrified myself
with all that i kept in
my fists relax
the rage stops
it all seems unreal

memories of me
when i was happier
i was someone
they all knew my name
all cowered in my shadow

i sit in my old chair
no longer mad
as aged as this seat
that relaxes my weak
body

they do not
cower
all praise
at my passing
it ends

memories of me
when i was happier
i was someone
they all knew my name
all cowered in my shadow

j–